Last summer I attended a training class, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. One of my bosses came on board when I was sick in 2010 so her first impression of me as a worker wasn't a good one. The fact that I was sick throughout 2010 - and remained sick into the first half of 2012 (yes all of 2011 was a blur to me) did nothing to improve her opinion. Which, in a roundabout way, is why I was in the class to begin with.
So, I'm in this class - which I enjoyed by the way . . . and learned a lot - and we had all these exercises we had to do. We had these booklets and we'd do something and have to write stuff in these booklets. Well, I was reluctant to write things in the booklet because I figured since my company paid for the class that it was subject to review by my bosses, right?
Well, we came to this point where we were told we'd have to write for five minutes after we saw a video. I, in my head, kind of scoffed and thought 'yeah right'. Then we watched the video and were told to start writing and for some reason I just went to town writing and had more stuff I wanted to say when we were told time was up. No one was more surprised than me - seriously!
I can't remember if we shared anything from what we wrote (although I'm sure if we did it was on a voluntary basis) but we were told we should go back to it later and trim it down to a nice, concise mission statement for our lives. It was a while before I went back to it but when I did I decided my mission statement was LIVE LAUGH LOVE and I decided I wanted to live that way.
In the meantime I was having computer issues to the point that I rarely logged on from home. Gone were the days that I blog hopped everyday to stay in touch with what my friends were doing, nevermind keeping up with my own blog.
For a while I had used school as an excuse for my lack of blog posts. And then I got sick, which really was a valid excuse because I struggled with getting out of bed most days for roughly two years, so blogging was a big event in my life - seriously.
But, in my head, I would've said my mission statement was a dream, or a goal, that I needed to aspire to. Then today I had some time and was reading some of my old blogposts and realized I had been living my mission statement prior to my making excuses as to why it wasn't a reality. I mean I was posting regularly when I first started taking classes so that doesn't work as a valid excuse later - at least in my opinion. Being sick I'm going to give myself a pass on (sorry).
Plus there's the fact that I have these documented memories that I would've otherwise forgotten about. I mean there are stories about my dogs that I'd forgotten about. Funny dreams (and some kind of scary ones too) that I posted. Workplace situations that, to be honest, I needed to recall about now. In short, reading some of my old posts was like reconnecting with an old friend that I'd lost touch with and was so glad to see again. I was recalling a side of me that I'd forgotten was there and really want to get back to.
When I created this blog it was, in part, a way to inspire me write . . . not just blogposts but books. I had a lot of enthusiasm for it then but lost it somewhere along the way. I want that back.
I've been reluctant in the past to commit to regularly blogging again but I want to regain that enthusiasm. I want to live my mission statement again. And, I want to go back to documenting things so that when I'm not having my best I'd days I can look back and think (as I did today) 'I remember that and it was FUN!'
So, here's to living the dream and becoming the blogger I once was. :)
